I need a hug, I need someone to help me go through this, I need a lovely stranger to talk. :/ omg, i’m so sad

A feeling letter

I’m not feeling good, by the way. But I don’t want others to see, I don’t need others to notice that I cry to sleep EVERY SINGLE NIGHT, that I spend the time on my own wasting tears. And I don’t even know why. Or I’m just denying it to myself, but I rather not think about it anymore. Simple things makes me sad? or nothing makes me happy? Can’t  explain it, sorry. I’m just looking for some reason to live. Not live exactly, there’s a lot, but I need something to make me feel alive, to make me wanna live, to make me wanna wake up day after day and make it through the end. But I don’t have it, and I can’t find it, and I’m tired -SO FUCKING TIRED- of all of these tears. C’mon, I’m not made of iron and I wasn’t made to fight against my feelings all the time! Wish I could smile for real, or don’t need to lie to everyone saying that I’m ok -when I’m not-! Wish I wasn’t so stupid, so sentimental or so friendly. Wish I was mean, independent and smart. And I give up, I’m weak, I’m tired of pretending that I’m strong. This may be goodbye.

as pesoas deviam aprender a encarar e discutir os problemas. nem sempre ficar calado é a melhor coisa, e sem solução, nada fica bem.

você diz pra se importarem com você, mas é a mesma coisa de pedir pra irem embora. 

Uma hora a gente cansa de correr atrás, de dar chance, de tentar esclarecer as coisas, por mais que doa, tem que deixar voar.

While doing some silly thing...